Hey y’all As my first post of 2016, I am bringing both a personal issue and a personal advice to the blog. I’ll start by telling the whole story. I do voluntary work at Church Camp with a lot of my friends, and while I love to do that with all of my heart, I was a wee bit worried about the food I’d be consuming during that period. More precisely, for 16 days I’d have to be out of my diet and gym routine.
After the holidays, I gained 10 pounds. 10! How is that even possible since I’m an ectomorph? I really don’t know. But nevertheless it happened (or maybe my scale is broken since I’ve stepped on it thrice with less than a minute in between and it showed different weights every time). Even though I’m not sure about how much weight I’ve put on, I’m very much aware that my six pack is gone and my arm flab came striking back. I’m not saying I’m fat or anything, I’m still a 24. Thing is, I lost the body I worked so hard to get in approximately two weeks by eating around 5000 calories every day when my BMR is around 1300. I wanted my old body back so so much I made a huge mistake: I told the Church leaders I wouldn’t be attending camp this season. Only yesterday did I notice the huge mistake I was making.
I was giving up on helping my Church and helping kids in need because I was obsessing over my body. What the heck was I doing? I prayed about it a lot, and apologized to God because I had to get over myself. I then called the Church leaders and asked if there was still a spot for me on the team, and they let me in. At that moment, I realized how important camp is to me. I get to work in the kingdom of God and have a lot of fun with so many people I love and I turned it down because of me. I was selfish and untrustworthy. They needed me, and I let them down. I was so lucky they took me back (even though it was for just haft of the season).
It hit me too late that I didn’t have to stop doing what I loved doing to get back to what I used to be. It hit me too late that I really didn’t need to food prep for 16 days because they couldn’t offer me brown rice and grilled salmon for lunch. It hit me too late that the calories in-calories out idea I’ve always despised if not followed with a clean diet was the answer I had to fighting the fat I gained last year and still be able to go to camp and do what I do best. So what if I’m going to be taking in a bit more sodium because the camp cooks use salt and I might eat a little vegetable oil because they grill their chicken breasts like that? I’m not the important one in this equation. God is, and so are those kids we’ll be taking care of. And I’m really happy it at least hit me, even though it was late.
So my advice to you guys is don’t stop doing what you enjoy doing just to take care of your appearance. I totally understand what it’s like to look at yourself and see that you need to change, and fast. But sometimes, it’s just not about you. Though it becomes about you when you see how much you love doing what you do for others. If someone else benefits from you not going to the gym for a while or watching what you eat even though it’s not what you’d rather be eating, it’s worth it. A journey you start to help yourself has got to motivate you to help others too. Because you learn to put yourself in their place. And with this post, I’m announcing that I will be going to camp next week. And I’ll probably break my diet at some point. But I won’t regret it at all because those kids will be reaping the benefits from that.
But don’t you guys worry, I’ll still be updating the blog. Some of the things I post, though, might be queued, so if I don’t answer your comments, that’s why. Cell reception isn’t very good there anyway. I hope you’ll still be visiting when I get back. I also hope you’ll take what I’ve written in consideration and won’t make the mistakes I made. I’ll talk to y’all soon!